How quick things change. Like, I am good. So good. It's scary and exhilarating, and I'm loving it. I felt a slight rise of anxiety last night when me and the boy went to watch a show, a brief panic watching these beautiful girls dance and wondering if he wished I looked like that and … Continue reading Isn’t is strange…
As I touched upon in my last planning post, I'm going back to basics next year, no kits, less spending, definitely no worrying that my spreads aren't up to par. Simple, efficient, my planner is going to work for me, my family and business again. The photo above is of my go to stickers. The … Continue reading Planning made simple.
So therapy was a *bit* shit this week, because I was happy, which sounds so silly, but I'm not going to lie, it was a tad pointless. She even said to me "Do you still want to come here?" Yes, yes I do, this is my problem Susan* one minute I'm happy one minute I'm … Continue reading Belonging
I'm still happy. Ish. No, I am happy. Therapy will be super fun today when I bound in there full of the joys of spring. Anyway, last night was odd. He was sad. And it broke my heart. I hate seeing him so sad, especially when I'm the cause of it. Two things stuck out … Continue reading Guilt tripping
I woke up actually feeling ok. Then the boy sent some passive aggressive message at me asking if he should book tickets to a show or will we just argue over ice cream. I didn't view it as passive aggressive at first. I was like are you being funny, cos I'm laughing. I'm 90% sure … Continue reading You need to lose weight update.
We're in bed. I ask if he's mad at me. He is. Again. We have a long drawn out discussion. My points are valid. He knows it. He tries to twist it that I'm stifling his free speech. I'm not. Let's go back. Coming home from the theatre, I ask if we can pull into … Continue reading You need to lose weight.
So last night the boy confessed he was scared about the whole baby thing and needed me to do a test sooner rather than later. I've been putting it off. I don't think I'm pregnant. At all. I think I'm ridiculously stressed about money or the lack of it and that's causing the delay. Even … Continue reading Oh, baby.
So tonight the boy has been off with me. Really off. I have, of course been panicking about it endlessly and pressing the matter because I need to know what I have done wrong. He told me some stuff I did that annoyed him. Fair play, I get it. It hurt, as it's just things … Continue reading Mad at me
As it comes to that all familiar time of month where I'm late - due to stress and eating all the crap, my mind can't help but wander to how I would tell the boy I was pregnant. Not satisfied with wafting a positive test in his face, I'm think of the ways I could … Continue reading Baby reveal ideas
I have always been a planner girl, I physically need lists and notebooks to survive, or at least to get anything done. This year I lost my motivation completely. I'm surprised I've got through as well as I did, only missing one swimming lesson and a couple of social things, that perhaps I didn't want … Continue reading I am a planner girl (2019 setup)